When I was pregnant, the lovely ladies from the knitting class I used to teach threw a little baby shower for me. And as we were opening gifts (they were all children’s books and some of the sweetest I’ve ever seen/read) and enjoying each other’s company, Anne said to me. And if you ever feel down and it’s lingering and lingering don’t chalk it up to “par for the course”, talk to someone. Call me…”the baby blues” can be a very subtle and insidious thing. You don’t always see it coming and then you can be in trouble. Well I didn’t but it came and I’d call crying almost every day trouble.
Call it hormones, call it whatever you want but my anxiety over “am I doing the right thing” was becoming so overwhelming that I just didn’t know what to do with myself or my little girl. And then one day my husband grabbed me by the shoulders, kissed me and said you’re doing a great job, an amazing job. Kira is happy and healthy and loves her mummy but it’s time for mummy to do something for herself.
Which leads to the other thing that was getting to me. As you may or may not have noticed we didn’t go to the Sheep and Wool festival this year. It was such a hard decision but the weather was just too awful to be toting a 5 month old around worry. So that means I missed Knitting Camp, The Sock Summit, Sheep and Wool Festival and then Stitches East (We even tried to attend that, just to shop a bit but again bad weather and two-hour car ride (one way) was not going to work). Is it ok for the Mum to stomp her feet a bit? Yes!
I also want to take a moment and publicly apologize to my darling husband for not trusting him the way I should have regarding our daughter. I’m so sorry. I know you forgive me but I’ve been so hard on you…Forgive me. And again I refuse to say it was just hormones. We all know when we’re beening “not nice”. I was really not nice.
I won’t bore you anymore with all the epiphanies I’ve had in the last few days and with how crappy I’d been feeling for the last month suffice it to say. I’m back, I love my family, I trust myself and all is well again in our/my world.
So here’s a bit of what we’ve been up to…
Check out my girl’s new ride…the big girl high chair and Solid Food…(that’s worth a whole other post)
Look what I can do?
Like my fangs!?!
I am Tigger…Tigger is me!
A very special day…
Endless gratitude for my family…